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I've had
something on my mind for several days now.
I've been uneasy.
And it has
to do with the stand I took on the image of the
woman who
lost her breast to cancer.
The first
clue that I had a problem came when I made
a typo at
my blog site.
I was
shocked and unsettled, you could even say rattled
when I reread
my response to a comment.
I'd written
that I agreed with the person when I
had actually
intended to
say that I disagreed.
It was a
classic Freudian slip, although I refused to see it that
way at the
time. (I hate to be wrong about anything.)
I hurriedly
deleted my response.
Second, I
received a letter from a dear blogger friend
explaining
how the image had given her courage to do something
that was
actually of great benefit to many disfigured children.
Although my
internal response to her letter was alarm
I replied
with a sort of "well isn't that nice" comment.
The light still hadn't come on.
Then last
night I dreamed I was standing on a wooden dock on
Lake
Ontario not far from where I live in my awake life.
I knew that
my 'dream' house should have been at the end
of the dock
but I could see that it wasn't.
Instead,
the dock sloped gently into the dark water and disappeared.
When I woke
I realized that there was a message in my
subconscious
mailbox, (water being the dream symbol
for the unconscious),
and if I wanted to retrieve it and
end my unease
I was going to have to walk down the
dock
get into
the water and start working with symbols.
Next blog: Looking at the image
symbolically
8 comments:
Looking forward to your thoughts as you sift through the symbols!
You're taking us on an exciting journey, Francie! Looking forward to your thoughts as always.
The subconscious mind works away at these things, doesn't it? Clarity will emerge.
Oooh...sounds exciting! I love these types of journeys. Ready...
wow! definite messages somewhere.
I love trying to figure out my dreams. I've had some very eerily symbolic ones - it's amazing how this happens.
It will be fascinating to see where you take this, Francie!
Your dream was compelling. And I loved your photo of the lake in the subdued light. Being able to rethink something is an important quality to have.
Nothing in this world is as powerful as a symbol that helps us see things in a different way. Someone's outrage can be another person's shield.
I used to volunteer at a center for burn children. I had the coolest job ever: every day, I would tease my hair as HUGE as it would get, wear the most ridiculous clothes, pain my face, and do other things that called on people's attention. Then I would walk around the city with two children (9-16) who had been touched by fired. Whenever someone stared at us, I would tell them, "It is okay to ask. I know my hair looks unusual."
After a few walks, the children would start doing the same, saying, "It is okay to ask. I know my face looks different." Some people walk away, but more asked. And the children talked to them. They looked into the eyes of strangers and saw their faces change from unease, to compassion, to admiration... sometimes there was pity, too, but the children and I were quick to tell them, "Don't feel sorry for me. I don't feel sorry for myself."
There is not biggest reward that the day you first see a child look at a person in the face, and say, "I'm okay with being different, and so should you."
I'm very excited about these upcoming posts. Seriously, I'm a symbol junkie, and love to read how they affect other people. Oops! Sorry for comment-jacking ;-)
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